Histoire d'un survivant - La série

Deux ans après une terrifiante nuit de douleur qui a détruit son existence normale d’adolescent, Aaron Downing se cramponne toujours à l’espoir qu’il redeviendra, un jour, un être humain pleinement apte. Mais son existence reste une chaîne constante de cauchemars, flash-back et peur. Lorsqu’on lui impose, au cours de son premier semestre à l’université, Spencer Thomas pour son projet de programmation, Aaron décide que peut-être il voit trop grand en visant la ’normalité’. S’il pouvait juste apprendre à contrôler sa peur, cela suffirait peut-être à lui permettre d’exister à nouveau. Après avoir entendu ses parents parler de le placer, de le sacrifier pour protéger ses frères, Aaron se désespère de trouver une solution pour réparer ses dommages psychologiques ou même pour simuler la normalité. Son nouveau psy réussira-t-il à contrôler assez longtemps ses propres démons pour l’aider ou aggravera-t-il seulement les dégâts déjà existants ? Aaron essaye désespérément de comprendre ce qui l’attire chez Spencer et il s’agrippe, dans le même temps, de toutes ses forces à sa santé mentale qui menace d’échapper à tout contrôle. Description VO : I can’t describe what it’s like to want to scream every minute of every day. Two years after a terrifying night of pain destroyed his normal teenage existence, Aaron Downing still clings to the hope that one day, he will be a fully functional human being. But his life remains a constant string of nightmares, flashbacks, and fear. When, in his very first semester of college, he’s assigned Spencer Thomas as a partner for his programming project, Aaron decides that maybe “normal” is overrated. If he could just learn to control his fear, that could be enough for him to find his footing again. With his parents’ talk of institutionalizing him—of sacrificing him for the sake of his brothers’ stability—Aaron becomes desperate to find a way to cope with his psychological damage or even fake normalcy. Can his new shrink control his own demons long enough to treat Aaron, or will he only deepen the damage? Desperate to understand his attraction for Spencer, Aaron holds on to his sanity with both hands as it threatens to spin out of control.

Perchée sur l’étagère au-dessus de mon lit, la poupée m’accuse avec ses yeux sans vie d’avoir échoué de la plus odieuse des manières imaginables à protéger Juliette. Elle me force à désirer la morsure de son fouet et l’acier dans sa voix pour noyer la douleur dans ma poitrine. Les parents de Benjamin Martin lui ont répété durant toute sa vie qu’il devait protéger sa petite sœur, mais il a échoué au cours d’une nuit horrible. Maintenant la morsure d’un fouet, des menottes s’incrustant dans ses poignets, ses bras et ses jambes étirés au-delà du supportable, lui donnent ce dont il a besoin pour oublier la mort violente de sa sœur, au moins pour un moment. Lorsque le dernier Dom de Ben le jette comme un jouet cassé, il manipule son meilleur ami, Jude Archer, pour qu’il ramasse les morceaux. Jude est amoureux depuis des années de Ben, mais aucun des fantasmes qu’il a pu avoir sur son ami n’incluait de le fouetter. Il ne comprend pas le besoin de BDSM du jeune homme et s’inquiète de sa dépendance. Il craint surtout de perdre son humanité parce qu’il s’est déjà perdu lui-même dans Ben. Jude apprend la définition réelle de la soumission lorsqu’il doit accepter de marquer son âme pour contraindre la douleur qui ravage Ben. Description VO : A Survivor Story From her perch on a shelf above my bed, the doll accuses me with lifeless eyes of failing Juliette in the most heinous way imaginable, forcing me to crave the bite of his whip and the steel in his voice to drown out the ache in my chest. For his entire life, Benjamin Martin’s parents drilled into his head that he must watch out for his little sister, but one horrific night, he failed. Now, the bite of a whip, cuffs digging into his wrists, his arms and legs stretched beyond endurance, these things give him what he needs to forget his sister’s violent death, at least for a while. When Ben’s latest Dom casts him aside like a broken toy, he manipulates his best friend, Jude Archer, into picking up the pieces. Jude has been in love with Ben for years, but his fantasies about his friend never included whipping him. He doesn't understand why Ben needs BDSM and he worries about Ben’s addiction. Most of all, he fears losing his humanity because he’s already lost himself in Ben. When he’s forced to trade the marks upon his soul for the pain that ravages Ben, Jude learns the real definition of submission.

A Survivor Story It’s been nearly five years since Aaron woke up in the hospital so broken, he couldn’t stand the sight of his own face. The flashbacks no longer dominate his life, but he’s still unable to find intimacy with his lover, Spencer Thomas. With time, patience, and the support of his family, his therapist, and his loving partner, Aaron has figured out how to live again. The problem is, Spencer hasn’t. His life has been on hold as he waits for the day he and Aaron can have a normal relationship. Hoping to move things forward for them both, he takes a job as a programmer in downtown Chicago, leaving Aaron alone. Reeling in the wake of Spencer’s absence, Aaron receives another shock when his attackers are caught. Now, he must testify and verbalize his worst nightmare. Publicly reliving his trauma without Spencer at his side destroys his precarious control. But he finds someone who can understand and empathize in Jordan, who watched his brother cut down in a school shooting. With Spencer gone and the DA knocking at his door, Aaron seeks solace in Jordan, and Spencer will have to risk everything to hold on to Aaron’s love.

Aaron Downing worshiped his mother. She saved his life. She did everything for him. But Anthony Downing has a different perspective. He sees the woman who tossed him into a basement for eight long years and forgot he existed. When Anthony decides he’s done being invisible, he packs up and heads for Detroit to stay with his Internet friend Jay, but fate intervenes. Brendan Mears lost everything the day the man with a gun came into his father’s store. Now, he’s tethered to a business he can’t manage and a brother who resents him. Different in all the ways that matter, Anthony and Brendan struggle to overcome their psychological obstacles, until a crushing betrayal sends them running for cover and each other.